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Welcome to my blog. I hope you'll find something that you can relate to. Who knows, there could be other souls out there who think a little too much and feel a little too deeply, just like me. 

Changed woman (kinda)

You know you're a changed woman when you snack on healthier things instead.

Yup, that's right. I now shop in the healthy/organic/gluten-free/dairy-free section to get my snacks. Not gonna lie, I wanted to die in the first four days. Everything started to look delicious, even the sofa in the living room. What? It looked like a giant bar of dark chocolate. 

Thing is, it's not that I'm a completely unhealthy eater. I'm a vegetarian at least 5 days out of the week; as in I don't eat any beef or chicken except for seafood or quorn products. And a LOT of times, I try to avoid dairy products in large quantities. My meals always have tons of veggies in it, I eat organic, wholewheat everything and I'm not a fan of fried-foods so my meals are rarely oily. I'm not even a fan of butter or salty foods! I don't like soft drinks and yes, I work out every week. 

It's the SNACKING that's my problem. I like munching on cakes, cookies, ice-cream, Nutella and candy when I'm stressed (which is most of the time). You know, all the good stuff.

When I'm stressed out, it's hello binge-eating. I've finished a whole tub of Hagen-Dazs in one go before; quite a few times too! These pictures were taken between January and May. Don't judge me:

This is my SOS drawer.

This is my SOS drawer.

Chocolate helps to calm me down.

To be fair, although that massive Galaxy bar is now finished, my SOS drawer (where my stash of chocolate is) is still quite full. Not because I've refilled it; but because I seem to forget I've many goodies in there. Slowly, I'm getting better at choosing healthier foods for snacking. But I refuse to deprive myself, I'll treat myself every now and then.

So... why the sudden change in eating habits, you ask? My 21st birthday is in 2 days and a month ago it just dawned on me that I'm no longer getting any taller, curvier or womanly, THIS is the body that I'm going to have to live with for the rest of my life. 

I'm practically a woman soon. I only have one body so I might as well take care of it now before it gets harder for me to maintain my figure. I'm short and curvy so please believe I pack on the pounds quick. I've heard horror stories of becoming bigger as you hit your 30s because your metabolism isn't working as efficiently anymore. Me scared. :[

Being 21

Being 21

Scatter-brain 2.0