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Welcome to my blog. I hope you'll find something that you can relate to. Who knows, there could be other souls out there who think a little too much and feel a little too deeply, just like me. 

A safe place

Muscles get stronger as a result of our body facing resistance on a constant basis. It's a way for our body to adapt to the opposing force it faces. Like our muscles, we grow stronger from challenges.

Challenges condition us to be tougher and more resilient; it's an automatic process. But even muscles need rest. Constant resistance paired with inadequate rest and nutrition will just leave a person exhausted and weak.

Ask any doctor and they'll tell you that little sleep and an unhealthy diet are a recipe for disaster. I think the younger generation today face a lot of challenges never previously faced by former generations—at least not at such a young age.

Teachers/parents demand good grades. Their peers expect them to act and look a certain way. The media tells them they've to look a certain way to be attractive. If that wasn't enough; society gives them their own set of rules, too.

Growing up for me, I was always trying very hard to be comfortable with myself. I tried to be ok with my looks, my low self-esteem and the fact that I rather read and draw all day instead of having every bit of me analyzed by people who don't even know the first thing about me!

I tried hard to be confident but I never felt as if I was in a safe environment to be myself, let alone make mistakes.

Without mistakes; you don't learn. I did the only thing which I thought would save me from the critique of the mean kids at school and the passing comments at family gatherings—I avoided EVERYTHING. Even things which I knew I'd love if I became good at it. My self-doubt developed into anxiety; something I brought with me to sixth form and uni.
In uni, I met people of a different kind. Viciously competitive and somewhat nicer. I made a handful of very supportive friends (who later became my housemates) and together we became each other's rock. We were a family.

Uni ended too soon but I returned to Malaysia with a very different mindset. My housemates and I made a pact; 2014 was all about taking risks. I was SO ready to get out there and try out new things. I made a vow I wasn't going to chicken out of anything.

One of my biggest fears? Talking in front of a group of strangers. Heck, even talking to a stranger. Girl guiding actually gave me a chance to do public speaking. I still get extremely lightheaded before I've to talk/present in front of a group of people but I think my journalism degree taught me to put on a brave face even if I wasn't.

Girl guiding however, gave me that chance to do what I needed to do to improve on myself without the unsympathetic grading system. It gave me the positive reinforcement which I did not get much of throughout my experience in school or uni...

... to be continued.

...I'll tie this in with the Helen Storrow Seminar, I promise.

A safe place PT. 2

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