I was in Ipoh last weekend and on my last night there, I decided to go through some storage boxes filled with stuff from my uni days. During that process, I found an old diary of mine which I had during my 3rd year of university.
Flicking through the pages made me laugh and smile so much even though most of my entries were laced with stress, worries and frustration. University wasn't a complete joy ride for me but fret not, there were definitely happy times.
Although my diary is private, I love reading it to people I trust. All my entries are written in so much detail that it actually sounds like a page out of a novel—this is something my close friends tell me. Sometimes they tell me they wish I could write in their diaries for them! Haha.
My sister and I took turns reading out entries from our diaries to each other. It was so late at night and because we sleep in the same room as our little brother (sibling tradition), we did it in the bathroom so we wouldn't wake our brother up.
The next day when I was back in KL, I went over to my best friend's house and she read me entries from her old diaries. I'm predicting a new tradition in the making!
I think the best way to move on with our lives is to acknowledge how far we've come and laugh at all our past (bad) experiences; the ones we once thought we'd never get over. Bitter experiences always seem so insignificant as the years go by.
That's the best part of having a diary—being able to see how much you've overcome during the span of your lifetime. Without writing your experiences down, it's hard to remind yourself where you once were and where you're heading.
These are some of the diaries I've from the ages of 14 onwards (2005 until now).
'Emo is not punk'?? I don't even know what I was thinking. What does that even mean?? That pretty pink diary was plain when I bought it but my 14-year-old self decided to ruin it with decorations that scream out teen angst.
I've had a diary ever since I was 5. My mother's always encouraged me to write about my daily experiences and it helps that the cartoon characters I liked as a kid always had a diary. Anyone else watched 'As Told By Ginger'??
My love for writing stems from having a diary. I love archiving my thoughts, feelings and experiences into a book—it's like owning a time machine; it gives you the chance to visit your past whenever you want to.
It's also liberating having a space where I can be completely honest and express my emotions. A place where I can immortalise some of the darkest and happiest moments of my life.
In some ways, a diary is like having someone you can constantly talk to without boring them to death. People can get tired of deep and long conversations but when you're writing your heart and soul onto paper, the conversation doesn't end unless YOU want it to.
>>> to be continued in Dear Diary Pt 2